It's funny to me to look back on my life and think about how my perspective has changed.
The other day Heidi was telling me about how she got an egg yolk separator thing for Christmas and how excited she was. I started thinking about how i got a sewing machine and poor Bethany got hand towels. With the exception of Bethany we were really excited about these "grown up/ mom" type gifts. Weird. When did i stop liking Amy Grant t-shirts? (don't worry i still like almost everything else about her).
My perspective has also changed in how I now relate more to the perspective of being a parent then a child (no, this does not mean i'm pregnant...just closer to that age group).
Lately i've been thinking about what all i do want to accomplish before i have kids...after reading
Becky's Blog I feel better about that upcoming (i stress this is upcoming as in NOT near future) event. Like every good girl i do want to have kids someday and look forward to the joys of being a mom, but I also don't want to give up "the good life". I love my job, ok with the exception of this week. I love it just being Trevor and our dogs in the house. I love having time to read (looking for a great book?--check out the Twilight series by Stephanie Meyers...oh so good). I love having time to paint, sew, and various other "art". I love "me" time.
Plus i feel like i have to get all of the things that i want to accomplish done before we have kids. I want to travel more. I want to become a famous (in relative terms) painter. I want to further my career and explore aspects that are interesting to me. I want to learn to speak French, did i mention travel? I want to.... ok so that list can go on for a bit.
The point i was trying to make (yes, i had one) is that I don't know what the change will be like when we have kids so i'm scared of what i'll have to give up. (mom--this is where you insert your, "Someday you'll know little caterpillar," comment.)
Things i know:
-"Your life will completely change." --I find this vague and unhelpful
-"It's the hardest thing and the best thing" ---um, is that good?
-"It will keep you from being selfish."---yea that one worries me, i like my "selfish time"...ok so it will be good for me, yea, yea, yea.
-"Don't rush into having kids." also known as "Plenty of time for that later." or "You don't need to be in any rush."----these comments make me wonder what they aren't saying---like there is some code "don't tell them how bad it is or they won't do it" or something like that....sketchy.
Things i do know:
Yea no experience here. So i observe ALL (with 1 or 2 exceptions) my friends with their kids and think back on my childhood and wonder what it will really be like.
Ok blog word, here are my thoughts. Once again check out
Becky's blog which gave me hope (of course technically she has NO real experience with this yet either...for another couple months at least).
Things change. I hate change.
That's the thing about life...change is inevitable. Just have to trust God that it's for the best....though it sure would be nice to know what we were getting into sometimes.
Someday you'll know little caterpillar.....someday you'll know.
---Jenn, Trevor, Kyle this is dedicated to you.
--this is dedicated to Becky, Mom, Kaley and me--what i can't dedicate things to myself? Come on!
This is dedicated to Megan (who may never read this blog unless Becky tells her, "Hey Megan, Briana dedicated something to you on her blog. You might want to check it out. She didn't mention that today was your birthday, she might have forgotten. Oh well you should still check it out." Also dedicated to Katie, Becky and Mia.
this is dedicated to Trevor, Becky, my new friend Wilbert the Owl and Mom.
--------this is dedicated to Kaley and Becky.
